SUNDAY||FEBRUARY.06.05

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'M SO MOVING ON, yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get what I want
Since you been gone ..

well, camp was kind of a reality check for me. ever since then, ive been trying to make my life better. tryin to change my old ways and keep on going with my new way of life.

that old saying "it's not worth losing a friend over a guy" is so totally true. my whole love life has been a total roller coaster ride. if you would even call it a love life. many ups and downs. mostly downs. but now it's totally better. but heres the story ..
i was the best of friends with this girl. i liked this one guy, she liked another. the guy i liked started liking her and she said that she wouldn't go out with him, because she liked this other guy. but a couple days later, my heart was practically torn out and trampled on. u can probably guess what happened. our friendship wasn't as strong before and it kind of diminished. can't blame her though cause he was a totally awesome guy. but still, our friendship wasn't that great. so i stopped liking him because .. "it's not worth losing a friend over a guy".

time passes by ..

then, maybe a year or a year and a half later, i started to like him again. but then, my other friend liked him too. we know eachother like this guy and stuff. we are really good friends, but i felt that there is tension between us. plus, people are talking, which doesn't make things better. this guy is still a real kick ass guy and all, but still .. "it's not worth losing a friend over a guy". so i thought about it, prayed about it, and asked friends for advice and finally came to my own conclusion. if its mean to be, then it'll happen in its own time. if its not, then its good that i have moved on. and ever since then, i have felt so much better about things .. and life in general. and i have been actually a lot happier. plus, we're still totally awesome friends.

on a lighter note, drivers ed has been totally awesome. i actually started driving! first, around the block near hba, and then from kaimuki to ward! all on my own .. oh yeah. we had a trip to the medical examiners office, and we got to see/smell some disgusting things. we saw these dead babies from like 3 and 4 months old. one was all dried and shriviled, the other looked like a mini baby with fingers and all. we saw brains, hearts, etc. AND for the grand finale .. we saw dead bodies in the refrigerators .. that was kind of .. gross. all pale and stuff. PLUS .. we got to smell decomposing bodies .. that was soo terrible. but, drivers ed has been totally worth it. its so fricken fun to drive .. a little tip for everyone .. WATCH OUT cause im gonna be on the road!

as for school, it has been all right. grades are okay. gotta bring them up uP UP!

PeaCE!

.:*ang